First of all...the rain.  Amazing and wonderful.  Over 190 days without rain and a three year drought.  Loved hearing the rain on the roof last night and this morning. 

Having big problems with irritability and lethargy.   Cranky to Mike this morning,  not happy with my situation.  I am sick of not being able to clean and cook or even get the mail or make my bed.  Floundering in depression and increased body aches from being sedentary.  Mike not super patient when he is trying to do other things,  bills and such.   He's cranky, too.  After he left early this afternoon, I sat and crocheted and read and finally had enough.  I got in the car and drove to Avila.   Parked in the harbor and sat watching the ocean and crocheting. Drove to Shell Beach and sat for a while watching the waves.  Working with my mind a lot.  Talking to God about why this being down physically is affecting me in other areas.  I just feel blah and unmotivated and discouraged.   I am fighting guilt over being this way over such a small disability.  I want to learn from this.  The more I work with it and listen, the more I learn.  God knows and His love is unconditional.  That love is in me...I can have it towards myself and others as long as I go inside to listen and learn. 

Was playing this song on YouTube this morning; 
"Higher than the mountains that I face.  Stronger than the power of the grave.  Constant in the trials and the change, this one thing remains.  Your love never fails, it never gives up, it never runs out on me. (×3)  And on and on and on an on it goes, it overwhelms and satisfies my soul.  And I never ever have to be afraid, this one thing remains:  Your love never fails, it never gives up, it never runs out on me. (×3)