Sitting here in bed, finished with breakfast,  my devotional and checking FB, etc.  A new day with new choices and new opportunities for allowing.  I have to know that,  seize that...

Worked til almost 2 pm yesterday without lunch.  My back and neck hurt from so much sitting at the computer and being on the phone.   My self-awareness wasn't the best.   Today, I will be more aware of what I need.  I will get up and move.  I will bring food.  I will take care of me, all parts of me.  Would I let those dear to me go without lunch or a potty break til 2?  Of course not!  Then why do I unconsciously listen to my Controller who whispers,  "Keep going, you can work harder and longer than anyone.  There's work to be done and you know how to do it...more, keep going, power through that discomfort!"   Hmmm, I need to have a little meeting with myself...the caring adult knows what to do for others and for me.  Especially for me, right now,  today,  each moment. Discouragement,  lethargy,  sadness follow in the Controller's wake.  I want to be loved and nurtured and acknowledged for being me, as I am, right now, in the midst of imperfection and loss.  God is there, wanting that for me, but am I placing greater validity on the voice of the Controller than the voice of God over, in and through my life.  Please, no.  God forbid!  I will embrace God's words over my life today!