Another week almost over.  There is a light at the end of the tunnel.   Cast comes off on Monday.  I am more mobile on my crutches and able to bear a little more weight to steady myself.  This seemed to come in conjunction with the YouTube talk I listened to regarding our thoughts and our brains and creating new neural pathways with our thoughts.  I can choose.  At this stage of life, I no longer have the option of drifting along mindlessly. Each day, each situation presents the opportunity to choose, to allow,  to grow,  to be mindful and grateful.  Grateful for life and for all those who are in my life.  Grateful for knowing God knows and when I'm still and listening,  I receive.

I've been grateful this week for the people God has placed in my life. You see, I can sometimes take people or leave them.  I can be distant and at arm's length with people.   I do care for others, deeply, but have difficulty with revealing the depth of my feelings. I struggle with vulnerability and admitting weakness.  I want acceptance; I want caring, but feel uncomfortable receiving it.  But this week I'm feeling and knowing.  I'm grateful for my co-workers,  whom I so appreciate and even more so now as I learn to accept their assistance.   Feeling blessed by a little luncheon on Sunday, by time with three of my closest friends on Monday afternoon and, this afternoon, by spending precious  time with Sandy...a 44 year friendship.  When I choose to accept the caring of others, I feel the pleasure and connection I desire.  I am letting myself be who I am in the company of others.  If they don't understand or accept me for who I am, I am learning to be ok with that.  I am learning more about letting others be who they are...well, that is sort of easy for me with all but my family.  So I release, over and over, letting them be on their own journey,  while fiercely loving them unconditionally and praying for them.