Margaret died on Tuesday evening. Very glad her suffering was brief, less than 3 weeks. Grateful to have been able to communicate closely with Terry and Laurie through all this. We are the next generation, her legacy of caring lives on through us. Mother is unemotional, even though this is the sister to whom she was the closest. I can only hope she sheds tears in private. I hurt for her and I dislike the fact that I, too, struggle with vulnerability...I rarely am able to cry, though I've prayed for the gift of tears.
I worked full days Monday through Wednesday. Felt good, but frustratingly painful. PT twice, which feels painfully good. I am doing the exercises at home. I am being proactive. I am meditating healing energy to my leg/ankle. I've been listening to youtube talks about healing. Working on staying present and grounded while visualizing healing and walking normally again.
Thanksgiving in Nipomo was such a great time with the family. I really didn't do much. The girls made everything so pretty and Aaron cooked a stellar feast. So different this year... I'm usually in the camp kitchen cooking a feast for family and neighbors. So much has changed this year, that I oftentimes don't feel like ME. I miss many aspects of living at the camp, while enjoying many benefits of living in town. God help me to be present and content wherever I am.
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