SURPRISED!

Wow, what a nice surprise! Another submission was accepted by the Women's Press of SLO!
Too bad there is no financial compensation, but this is a beginning for me and a confidence builder!

Who Am I?

I've lived as a chameleon,
deftly changing
to assuage others' expectations.

Who am I, Lord?
I beg to understand.
Not for others, but for me!

To see with soul eyes.
To know MY opinions,
wisdom, creativity and,
yes, to know my very heart,
this my deepest prayer.

With miniscule awareness,
I fearfully allow...allow rivulets of truth,
to erode their way in to
my long-barricaded soul.

Trickles of poignant delight
form new patterns,
borne, bittersweet, from my pain.

Each moment? A revelation, as
scales fall from my eyes!
I am...me..this moment and it is good.

No longer performing as a chameleon,
deftly changing
to assuage others' expectations,
I relax.

This fragile new pattern, just begun,
may it continue...for the next moment
and the next
and the next...